I don’t know who I am and I don’t know who I want to be. I’m scared at where I’m at in my life. I’m scared that I’m going to fall back into that scary stage of my life. I feel like I have nobody to be around anymore. I don’t have someone to hang out with besides my boyfriend. Don’t get me wrong I love him, but sometimes I’d like to be able to go hang out with friends. Go over to someone’s house. Make a change.
I had a scary vision today that I was driving my sister around and we got into a car accident. I cried and cried in the car driving because of a vision. It never happened nor will it but it scared me. The thought of losing anyone else close to me scared me. And then I realized that I lost someone very close to me. That nothing will ever be the same no matter what. That things have already changed far past my control. I can’t go back. It started changing 4 years ago and now will never stop. We will never be in the same place and that’s sometimes hard to accept. I’m happy for you. Congratulations on moving your life forward. It’ll work out for the best for you.
